Letter from Mommy

Our precious peanut, 

It seems only yesterday Daddy and I decided we were ready to bring a baby into our lives. Now we have reached a point when you could be here any day. I won't lie, I am completely terrified. Nights are spent wondering if I will be good enough. My days are spent counting your kicks and wondering if you know how much we love you. It's the most incredible feeling to feel your feet pressed into my sides or your knees suddenly swoosh across my tummy! We often lay in bed at night and giggle at your active movements. Daddy says it means that you are just very happy and excited already; I think he is right!

There is so much in this life that I want to show you, so much that I want to share. I keep thinking of the lessons that I have learned and what will be the best way to teach them to you. I want you to feel like you have it all, even if I can't give you all of the material things you may want. 

The things that I wish for you seem endless. I wish for you to be the best that you can be; I wish for you to trust your instincts, to grow independent and confident; I want you to be self-reliant so that nobody can control your happiness, so that you can look inward for reinforcement and replenishment. I wish for you to follow your dreams. I will not criticize your aspirations. Instead, I will support, encourage, and where possible, help to actively work towards your attainment of them. I wish for you to be assertive without aggression, and always with respect and a high regard for others; to not be manipulated; to not be victimized; to not 'give up' under pressure. I want you to live in the moment, not wait for things to happen to you, not fret because they didn't, but to make them happen for you one day at a time. Lastly, and most important to me, I want you to be HAPPY! I want you to find fulfillment and satisfaction in the smallest task as well as in your greatest achievements.

I may not always be the best mother. Someday I won't even come close. There are hundreds of things that I could do wrong. I just want you to know that even when I'm drowning in all of the things I'm not doing right, I'll still be trying. I will spend the rest of my life trying to ensure that yours is the best that it can be. 

I love you...to the moon and back!!

Love,

Your mommy